DISASTER

01/09/14 Disaster

This is the part of my life that was harmful to me too. I married Victoria a 23 year old I was about 42. Our break up and problems were my fault totally. I fell for a guy dressed as a woman. My fault she left for Dallas to stay with her grand mother and working for a truck stop. She got knocked up by a black man. We got back together until after the baby was born. I was on the road in a truck when he was borne. It fucking hurts when you hope it is yours praying it is and it is not yours are told. Her sister told me the baby was brown.

Then there was Linda and we were suppose to be swingers. We took normal wedding vows at her insistence. We attended the first meeting of a group called “Temporally Yours”. Linda spent the next day while I was working 11 hours writing an email getting me locked out of this group. Well some military men lost all and Linda did too she told me. I told her everything you had for everything I wanted to do. The owner of the group lost her child I was told too. A judge in San Angelo prodded by her ex husband got the electronic records about the group and ruled custody of the child to the father.

Sex love and people can cause harm. Me I do not trust now very easily and am alone except tor Taz an Alaskan Husky. Tass loves the cold and me. I live alone on 60 acres with Tass knowing there will never be a woman again. I guess I blew my chances.

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Tradgy that was my life

01/08/14 Tragedy, that is my life of mistakes!! If you have read my blogs you get the idea not because I have not given it I have put forth that I have been wronged, hurt, used, abused, and burned. I have but not without my mistakes too. We all float on a vast ocean of humanity in a life raft of mistakes committed by us.

Nikki Mitchell the first real love (Puppy Love) almost my first sexual experience if we had not both chickened out. My big mouth talking about that killed us and broke her heart too. She was older I was younger perhaps it would have not gone to life long.

Diane Coots my best friend in high schools sister. I had come home from the Marines and fell head over heals for her. She took my virginity. I wanted her as my wife and ask her several times. I did not know that her stepfather to be fucked her before I did until 25 years later. Her mother married this man with Diabetes and at the time one leg. Diane married his son. My friend her brother last time I spoke with him will not go see his mother or let his children close to that old pedophile. Seems he did an 11 year old and was tried for it In Jones County Texas but not sent to prison. Notice the Tornado wake of destruction of one bad despicable human.

There was Susan Gecho in college I married her a had a daughter Sarah Serenity Green(now Gobbs). I loved Susan but her Grandmother that raised her. Floy came to our home in winters Texas and got Susan and Sarah breaking up my marriage too. Told her that her mother was crazy Floy Hobbs followed Susan's mother across the states and broke up one more marriage leaving two children wards of the stet of Utah. Floy Hobbs and Susan were staunch Church of Christ members of Love Lane Church of Christ in Bozeman Mt. Floy's daughter married a prison guard in Arizona who I was told when Floy came to break this one up stuck a shotgun in her face and invited her to leave his door or enter St. Peters. This family adopted a child, I guess crazy people get to adopt too. Or Floy was sick crazy one!

I was god knows what when I met Cindy Stidolf now don’t know her name. We had problems MY FAULT. I was undiagnosed Bi Polar, ADULT ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER and not too stable. My Bitch or a mother paid for her to fly away to Oregon. My mother is also Church of Christ staunchly. My bitch of a mother always told me to mind my own business and leave other people's business alone!!! Cindy was the most beautiful woman I ever saw in my minds eye I see her warm loving smile and red hair. If she came back I would do most anything she ask yes I never stopped loving her. We were married in the early 1980 Susan and I married in 1979 so I might have not been ready. Cindy and I had two wonderful months and two days together. I was not from that moment when mother sent her away, going to speak to my mother, but Steve Stover talked me into relenting.

Cindy Thomas came along we were married I think in 1982 and were married 13 years. Right after the marriage Cindy went to a doctor and was told she had Gonorrhea. I was checked by my doctor for it Dr. Turmbull he said the test was clear that I was not infected. Cindy claimed Virginity too. My father said bull shit she is the one that had it not you. I feel now like I was a cuckold during our marriage. She got her tubes tide after Emily was born. We were living in North Carolina at the time. We did this because she said to me that I would be down at least two weeks if I had my self fixed and we needed the income. She had a college degree too. All she has been is a convenience store clerk. I was a welder.

She said 13 years and not a good day in it.

Gloria Caveat a retired Air Force black woman I would almost give my soul to have her back. I love her still. I did ask her to marry me too. Another black woman I cant recall her name left me for a guy in Houston taxes I too ask her for marriage.

Looking back over old papers and things it seems one of my major problems was not having enough God of this world(MONEY) I just read a letter from Cindy green the 1^st and she said she only opened it hoping I sent money. Then there is the letter where Emily my daughter says she hates me because I did not get her a boom box.

I guess The GOD Hasheem, his son Asuah have decided I have ran though my chances and now from 58 till death will be lonely. I can't really blame them except for a gripe being saddled with Bi Polar and ADD up until 42 I think I was non medicated then it took another 10 years to find out the right medications. And giving me to Johan Green and J.W. Green as parents. I wish now I would have been born dead.

Mothers Influence in Son's Lives

There is a cartoon I saw today on Tumbler. It showed a woman with a wedding vale on and stockings being sexed by two black men one on each end. It showed a very small thin man with his hands obviously tide behind his back and in a chair next to him his mother sipping Champagne.: With the caption that read “It's important for you to learn right away what your place is in a marriage, honey. Just like it was when your father and I got married.

   Mothers have a direct affect on their sons lives. Back before all of this political correctness and the psychological community considered “Homosexuality” a problem it was thought that boys who had domineering mothers like this became “Homosexuals”. I do not know. What I can prove is Cary Grant was married 5 times. He was told as a child his mother died. His father had her put into an institution, Carry Grant found her when he was 30' something.

Jack Nicloleson was raised thinking his mother was his “Sister” he has not had a solid long term relationship in his life. I no longer visit my mother and do not communicate with her either. She is 81 and has been like that mother sipping Champagne a dictator in my life. She does not know that the mere sight and sound of her brings up memories of what might, could, should, and lost people in my life. It FUCKING HURTS TO SEE HER!

I would like to say if I was that man on my knees with my hands tied behind me watching others consummate my marriage, I want to say if they let my hands loose and when the men leave I would deck my mother and walk out on my wife to fie for an annulment. I know the truth is something else.

I want to say that the two men should be charged with some crime as the wife and the mother. Then all of them have all external sexual genitalia removed. Yes I mean the men loose their cocks and balls. The woman loose the clitoris and all tissues associated with pleasure plus a radical mastectomy that leaves but 1/4” of skin above the rib cage.

You think I am too harsh ok I have 5 marriages 4 grown children and grand children. Three of these children three know of my existence. One whose Church of Christ family had me removed from the birth certificate does not acknowledge me. If I were in control in 1954 my mother could have been secured upside down with a funnel and a ten foot hose on it held above her vagina the hose going into her womb and filled with cum she would have not gotten pregnant.

The 4 people in this cartoon are going to leave a tornado's destruction in there wake. This “MOTHER” has fucked mentally and emotionally one child already. The wife is going to continue that with the husband and any children she has. If she is by some miracle not made pregnant then she will screw her white children's lives up. The two black men are going to slap each other on the back to the “GANSTER” shit and continue fucking up people.

If what I propose happens at least it stops here, with these four people. If this wife and his mother plus the two men are handled very harshly such as loosing all genitalia associated with sexual pleasure, this sends a message. The message is to stop or go hide to do this it is not legal human behavior. For more prof of a mothers influence in the son's life look up ED GUINN, the inspiration pattern for Hannibal and Psycho those two movies also perhaps for

Texas Chain saw Massacre. Only ED GUINN was a real person and a real police case in the late 1940's. With a real SCREWED MOTHER mentally.

Safety

01/06/14 Safety

I read widely and I stumbled onto Kristen' Putrid Stories. The 1^st one I read was a bout a wife that paid a man to kill her cross dressing husband.. The 2^nd about a 16 year old that thought she was too old and killed an 11 year old she was babysitting. The 3^rd about a guy that wanted to kill and cook some members of a sorority house. The 4^th about a guy who did not like “Bible Thumpers” when they visited his house he killed them.

I can hear it now you should not read such. I assure you none of this is on my bucket list or any other list dealing with TO DO. It did however get me to thinking about safety. When I worked on a drilling rig I always told my driller when I went out to take a dump. I did this so if thee rig blew up he would know where to seek me.

These Putrid stories are fantasy of course but they do point to the need to be a community. You don't want to be like the television cop or FBI that goes into the building alone when there is back up then you get what happens to you. Don't be Mr. or Mrs loner.

We should all be taxed 1 penny so every sheriffs and police office in the country has an officer whose job it is to take calls from people telling them the plans that they have. I hear this too “Hell no the government knows too much”,ok I agree but they need to know where to look. This person would be non leagal, so if a 14 year old calls and says she or he is running away he cant send the dogs to bring them back.

He can however point them to help secure help. Say I am going varmint or hog hunting on the Barker Ranch with a friend. If there is this officer or person I can call and give him my planned destination and time of arrival back home. This is safety for two reasons say our truck breaks down or one of us is bitten by a snake or god forbid there is a real non murder accident. When I call 911 the people have a much smaller area to search.

Now let's say my hunting partner is also them man to kill me. If he does and I have left specific information with a trusted person like this officer or friends and I do not call in a few hours of a time set the posse rides. If the bible thumpers had left information about where and when also kept written record of houses stopped at then the cops could corral their killer faster. I am not saying give up one inch of freedom but let someone know when you are going, where you are going, and when you are returning, plus your route.

In 1979 I lived in Boseman MT and was told of a man that picked up a couple of hitch hikers who killed and ate him. They were caught in California with 4 of his fingers in one of there pockets. Now do you think the Kristen Putrid stories are too far fetched?

MEAN WOMEN

I think it was in the middle of the wedding reception that I decided that I hated my husband, that it had all been a big mistake. On our honeymoon, I decided that I was going to turn him into the biggest cuckhold in the state. I started in on the resort staff. And that was a very good start indeed.

  I think one of my wife's thought something like this. Her name was Cindy. She bore me two children we divorced. She pulled a loaded gun on me and called me dickhead in front of our children.She was the second Cindy wife I had.

    I was telling some female coworkers about Cindy. I said she always tells me she is too tired to take the children to the park. She accuses me of screwing everything in Texas twice.

    One of the girls ask how long are you at the park with the children? I said until they run down a couple hours at least. When this lady heard that she said "Hell she is cheating on you". Think about it two hours is plenty of time and she can always stop for a gallon of milk on the way home in case you beat her back.

   During this time getting sex from her was a not going to happen in this life. So looking back yes she could have been cheating. The stopping for groceries would have been a perfect cover. I would never have thought. So i was a dumb cuck twice.

Bastards

It is the kindest thing I can think of to say about our Judges, Police, Prison Guards and Our legal system. You can search on the internet for stories of prisoners sentenced to prison in Texas for instance they are there to pay for a crime. While there they are raped abused by both other prisoners and the guards too. Unless the bad men inside and outside are so bad that they will kill the prison guards families and the warden' family too, thus having enough fear generated that these keepers of the zoo look the other way.

We should have in our prisons every inch covered by cameras and the photos caught going to a remote location away from the prison. Then when one of these rapes happen or beatings and the prisoners that did it are caught on film, then they are rounded up and made into eunuchs by the removal of both testicles and cock. Tattoos of any sort should be outlawed.

In female prisons have solitary confident rooms and put the women involved there for not less than 6 month time with no time out of the room. I have copied a story parts of it. That relate how a man was beaten and made to become a woman sucking cock a being ass F**KED by inmates.

“When we got to the door of the laundry room a CORRECTIONAL OFFICER was there. If I thought he was gonna help me I was mistaken. He looked at me and laughed.

"Uh-oh..looks like someone fucked up," he said. Batuco laughed. "We just going in to fold sheets, boss," he told the guard. The guard laughed. "Yeah, ok, whatever you say," he said, unlocking the door

While I waited I looked at the object in my hand. It was a bunch of wire coat hangers wrapped in black electrical tape.

After a while Batuco looked up. "You know what that is?" he asked me. I shook my head. "What is it, Daddy?" I asked obsequiously. "That a pimp stick," he said. He reached under the mattress stack, and pulled out a bunch of rags. He shook them loose and I could see that it was a bunch of rags tied together to form a crude rope.

He pointed to a foot stool. "Get up on that," he said. I obeyed him. He tied one end of the rope around my left wrist.. "Raise your arms," he said. I was crying and shaking in fear. He threw the loose end of the rope over the water pipes just above my head. He pulled my left arm up and tied my right wrist, so that now both my arms were tied above my head. If you've never had that done to you, you can't even imagine how painful that alone can be. I was, hanging naked from a pipe in a dirty cold prison, about to get a brutal beating from the man who now owned me.

Then he hit me, across the backs of my thighs. If my mouth hadn't been taped my screams would have been heard out on the street. I don't think I have ever felt that much pain. I was screaming through my gag, and writhing in naked agony as Jose administered the brutal beating. My entire body was beaten, everything but my face and genitals. I don't know how long the beating lasted, probably no more than a few minutes, but it felt like hours. Finally it was over. Batuco was breathing hard and sweating. He took off his shirt and put the foot stool under my feet, and untied the rope. I was damn near in shock from the pain and I would have fallen if Batuco hadn't picked me up and carried me to the mattresses. The guard saw the bruises all over my arms and legs, but when he saw me looking at him he quickly shifted his gaze.”

How can we call ourselves anything like CIVILIZED and we will not protect these people in our prisons. How does this not make us like Japans unit 732 or Hitlers prisons Stalin's Gulags. Yes right here at French Roberson in Jones county!!! Just think a Correctional Officer looks the other way!! If you remove the cocks and the balls of the bully's this behavior will stop because no man wants to have those removed. You can bet that the Judges know about this and the police sheriffs dept too, OUR LEGAL SYSTEM!!!!